September 22nd, 2004

badday amandajane5

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I don't know what's wrong with me today I'm just not in the mood for anything. I hate being like this, I don't hate people I just want them to leave me alone, but not really.

My RL sucks, I can't get anything right in my relationships cause I'm a shit person. I can't get a proper boyfriend, and I couldn't afford it if I could. My Council tax is going up I don't get my wage rise till October. I can't find a single thing to like about my mother. I have to go to a conference over night which means no internet access and I've just had a week on Spain of that and I can't take it. I have to meet my boss today so that I can tell him that I don't really think there's much point me going because I'm going to leave the section asap.

I have to meet my aunt today at lunch time, then I have to clean my flat so it's spotless for visitors I get over the weekend. Friday I have to go for a curry with work, Saturday my Dad's taking me out, Sunday my mother's coming over. If I wanted a full life I would get one arggg...

To top it off my lj friends are having a worse time, my troubles seem like piss in the wind in comparison. I hate that I can't help them too.
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