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Posted on 2004.08.21 at 16:24
Current Mood: sicksick
Gimli has been down, she's been nice at least I had to tell her about Mike. I didn't tell her he came over last night and we did stuff though. She's happy that we've finished. I don't know if I should carry on seeing him when it's like this and I am alone. Is he using me? I love him, he says he loves me. Life gets even more complicated when you can't trust, and it's not his fault it's mine. I must be crap because I've always been cheated on always been dumped.

Got to think about other things though, I do feel sick maybe that'll take my mind off it.

A question for my friends. Do your birthday reminders work? Cause I haven't had any. So I'm sorry anybody if I missed your birthday.



kitkat3979 at 2004-08-21 08:46 (UTC) (Link)
It's kind of a tricky situation, although if you both love each other maybe you can work things out.

Are you still together, despite the fact you're not living together right now? Or have you actually broken up? (post break-up sex can be very bad for the psyche).

You've just got to make sure you do what makes you happy, no matter how much you love him. My philosophy (if you care) is that no one will take care of me if I don't.

I'm sending you lots of hugs and good wishes. I hope everything works out for you. And remember, if he doesn't realise what a great thing he has in you, then he doesn't deserve you anyway (it may be a cliche, but it's true).
aurora_bee at 2004-08-21 11:01 (UTC) (Link)
We're broken up. Although he doesn't want us to be, his mother put it in as a condition.

I'll have to hope that he doesn't mess me around, cause his mother doesn't want to know me. It's a straight choice me or her. There's no way in hell I want to be part of that.

It does feel weird though.

Thanks hon.

where is the hooood? where is it aaaat?
lexslave at 2004-08-21 09:03 (UTC) (Link)
awww.. that is exactly why i am alone, and will probably be that way for the rest of my life. i can never get the trust back, it's always there in the back of my mind. so i distance myself from EVERYone real. (no offense to you guys)plus, as i said before, it's hard as hell when you have the forces of evil plotting against you. (i.e.family)

i just don't understand the pampering one night, and leaving the next day bullshit. i would have FLIPPED out. and you are SO NOT CRAP! it's us romantics that always seem to get taken advantage of. don't give up (like i have) but also, don't get together with him just because your lonely. :( unless BOTH of you know it's JUST for sex. fucking mind games. i hate that!

communication. seems SO easy, doesn't it? i will say again tho, you are a wonderful, talented, friendly person. anyone who doesn't see that, or plays around with your emotions, is not worthy of you!
aurora_bee at 2004-08-21 11:07 (UTC) (Link)
Everyone keeps telling me to forget the past, I guess you should, but it's so hard to do.

The things the other night were meant, but a 'family emergency' gave his mother some extra power. And Mike being a nice person feels it's all his fault.

you are a wonderful, talented, friendly person.

That's so nice, no-one's ever said that about me. Thank you, I haven't even known you that long.

taer_silveroak at 2004-08-21 09:11 (UTC) (Link)
Has he explained anything to you?
aurora_bee at 2004-08-21 11:07 (UTC) (Link)
He's explained it to me now, but as my friend pointed out a not would have been nice.
taer_silveroak at 2004-08-21 09:11 (UTC) (Link)
The birthday reminders in LJ are disabled currently.
aurora_bee at 2004-08-21 11:08 (UTC) (Link)
Thanks for that. Gonna have to write them all down in future ;o)
roxymissrose at 2004-08-21 09:18 (UTC) (Link)
Hey none of that shit! Just because guys are basically drooling idiots and put us through shit, doesn't mean there' anything wrong with us...don't take what he did as your fault, that's a fucked up game, that trust me baby, will keep you down for a long time--don't do that to yourself.

Love sucks, it kind of never gets easier*sigh* but a long as it's really there, there is always a chance, y'hear? Some day, you'll hit on the person who will make you feel glad you're alive, I know 'cause I'm living it now. He may be an ass sometimes, but he's crazy about me still, and I'm truly a lucky bitch to have him.

Courage and patience little one--and because it's me, if you need to kick his ass, I'll hold his arms behind his back for you!

Hey! Yer Roxy thinks you're finestkind,ok? *hugs*
aurora_bee at 2004-08-21 11:09 (UTC) (Link)
*Hugs Roxy*

I don't know what I'd do without you!
just abi
justabi at 2004-08-21 09:38 (UTC) (Link)
Ack! Clearly I've missed something. What happened??? He seemed like such a great guy. But whatever happened, don't take him back unless you can forgive him. Otherwise all will suck.

I'm with Roxy. I'll get his feet.

You are a talented, funny, lovely woman and bugger anyone who makes you feel otherwise.
aurora_bee at 2004-08-21 11:11 (UTC) (Link)
He left me while I was in work, didn't leave a note. Came back later explained, we're finished.

Thanks hon.

just abi
justabi at 2004-08-21 14:41 (UTC) (Link)
What an unbelievable bastard! Well, he can just fuck off then.
aurora_bee at 2004-08-21 14:57 (UTC) (Link)
The UB! I do love him though, guess I'll have to get over that.
just abi
justabi at 2004-08-21 15:15 (UTC) (Link)
You don't have to get over it. You just have to remember that he's a bum.
aurora_bee at 2004-08-21 15:17 (UTC) (Link)
I don't know hon it was a difficult choice for him :O(
just abi
justabi at 2004-08-21 15:27 (UTC) (Link)
He still made the wrong one.
aurora_bee at 2004-08-21 15:36 (UTC) (Link)
*Hugs you*
just abi
justabi at 2004-08-21 15:44 (UTC) (Link)
*hugs back* It'll be okay.
oboros at 2004-08-21 09:41 (UTC) (Link)
I've been in your situiation. You end up talking and one thing leads to another and then - *sigh*.

Away time is what I recommend. Don't invite him over. If you do meet - do it somewhere outside the home - and don't go back home together. Just some thoughts.
aurora_bee at 2004-08-21 11:13 (UTC) (Link)
I think you're right no coming over. Get my keys back. I think he needs to grow up a bit too.
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